twice

guess I love to do same things twice, gotta 'repost' a song.



This song is freaking genius. The composition is catchy and the lyrics are clever.
"Genius is man, this", said Yoda never.

When I was a kid, the things I did, were hidden under the grid
Young and naive, I never believed that love could be so well hid
With regret, I'm willing to bet, you say the older you get
It gets harder to forgive and harder to forget

It gets under your shirt like a dagger or work
The first cut is the deepest, but the rest will flippin' hurt
You build your heart of plastic, get cynical and sarcastic
And end up in the corner on your own

'Cause I love to feel love but can't stand the rejection
I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection
I thought I was close, but under further inspection
It seems I've been running in the wrong direction
Oh, no

So what's the point in getting your hopes up
When all you're ever getting is choked up
When you're coked up,
And can't remember the reason why you broke up
You call her in the morning
When you're coming down and falling
Like an old man on the side of the road

'Cause when you're apart you don't want to mingle
When you're together you want to be single
Ever the chase to taste the kiss of bliss
That made your heart tingle
How much greener the grass is
With those rose tinted glasses
But the butterflies, they flutter by
And leave us on our asses

'Cause I love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection
I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection
I thought I was close, but under further inspection
It seems I've been running in the wrong direction

There's fish in the sea for me to make a selection
I'd jump in if it wasn't for my ear infection
'Cause all I want to do is try to make a connection
But it seems I've been running in the wrong direction
Oh, oh

Seems Passenger had only One Direction.
Lolz.

i will make a cool post no matter it took

cool post or not?

these suit each other fine.

the poem is superb and i like the song i found this morning

jee and jaa

hmm... had a strage evening. went through the ep songs with the producer and we were pondering what we are going to do. we had a long talk and in the end we locked our plan. as heartbreaking as it feels to say, people should prepare not to hear a thing from the ep, that could be the case. maybe it's better if i prepare you so you don't have to prepare yourselves:

i might not be releasing an ep ever this year.

wow, feels kinda strong to say that. but yeah, we've got a great plan. if the plan works, and i fucking make it work, the whole ep would be ready in the end of april. but yeah, you may not hear it at all this year.

it's been kind of a confusing week. interesting, though. don't really know what to think of anything so yeah, i'm badly confused by life. there are choices i could make.

and i remembered a nice quote i found on tumblr someday, it goes like this: i almost hate letting people into my life 'cause they always leave. in my case i wouldn't say i hate it and i wouldn't say they always leave, i would modify it as the following: i'm afraid of letting people into my life 'cause they may leave someday.

and as i had to think about the ep tonight, it made me think of how goddamn important those five songs and the whole 1,5 year process is to me. those five songs have been on top of my priority list, on top of my life for all this time. i so wish someone wants to listen to them.

thank u for your time,
blogger,
thanks for letting me clear my mind

trip to upper finland

* singing Happy Birthday and a random choir song ex tempore to an elder lady,

such a beautiful moment

* meeting local people

* enjoying a weekend in a place new to you with awesome people

* wandering through snowy sheets to a high snowy mountain

for a campfire in sunshine, roasting marshmallows + warm juice

* sauna plus a run out to the ice to have a glance on the moon and the stars

* trip back home in the back of a van with friends

* bus trips

* sleep

* landscapes of beauty

papillon

Hey'all! Nice week again! Yesterday was pretty busy but fun! Today I'm going to the studio to work on two songs all by myself, I've been doing some vocal exercises so my voice would be in great shape for the night. I need to sing two choruses, multiple times. Unspoken & Incomplete. And hopefully some backing vocals.

Haha... unspoken & incomplete. Wonder why all my songs have such a negative yet hopeful message.  And yeah, I thought I'd write down some takes from my new lyrics. And there are not much of these, and they are just lines from somewhere. And they're not necessarily, in any way, connected with my personal life. Necessarily.

By all means 

oh cure this disease

called love

But my pleas

they fall on deaf ears

Oh love, I burn

*

I set fire to this bridge I'm crossing

The time's upon me, I'm leaving this burden behind

I know you won't let go of my heavy heart

Realize though I'd stay we'd never get this thing right

*

I cannot breathe when you're out of my reach

*

I've been stuck in the entries

*

Who in the least dares to feel?

These days you must be made of steel

'Cause in the end you'll face defeat

Reality rarely reaches dream

*

You made me feel at home in a place I did not know

Why'd you run away, oh why'd you run away

* 

This rose has no thorns, no
I'm fighting against an oath I have sworn

*

They've been offering their hearts

You've tied my hands behind my back

I need you in my arms, now

So please untie me

*

What if we were not friends

What if we were lovers instead

But there's always an end

As much as we tried to pretend

inspiring poetry!!!

If something inspires me, it is these poems.

These are so goddamn brilliant.

And I feel these. Some of them a lot but probably not quite as literally as they are.

I also feel that everything a person likes tells about the person, which I think is a fact actually.

Why have I chosen exactly these poems to introduce tells a lot of the inner me.

Oh, how deep once again.

This is quite beautiful.

There's something cool in this.

True words.

I see this as something about relationships.

This is freaking cool. Inspiring as hell.

This is one of the most me of these. Love it.

Frustration and loss neatly packaged.

This is fun. 

And I don't give up on anything though it's hard to breathe...

Amazing.

And I cannot survive

And I cannot survive 'cause you always mess up my mind

And I love no-one

And I share my heartache with no-one

This is fun, too. Quite awesome.

This is also a fun one. I like the "You can hug me. Fucking listen to me." part lol...

Makes me think of a bitter and lost person who needs comfort and love.

Check out (in Finnish)

Only You

But when I close my eyes I see you stand before me

And if you take my hand I'll leave it all behind

Because only you can set me free

nine lives

I'm so happy. Great feeling! Not a cloud on my sky.

Yesterday was awesome. And so was the day before. New people, real awesome people. Hope we bump into each other sometime in the future.

Spring is in town. Coffee made me shake and coffee made me feel nice. New Von Hertzen Brothers album is super. Love, love, love. There's nothing I could complain about, really... But the fact that all my days are full and I have no time to express myself, pour some of my soul on paper, and all my ideas just multiply and multiply inside my head...

Yeah!!!! Guys be positive, stay sharp and fill yourself with joy. Works with me.

when there's no love in town

Been feeling this song!

In vain.

And I'm so goddamn excited about living my life.

I like being here

On Tellus.

There's also something else I've had in mind writing in here about. I'm really easy to get to know if you are interested in getting to know me. I might seem silent at times but that may be because there are stronger personalities in the same space, or I seem absent or then I am too tired to be on the spot. But if you want to get to know me I kind of soon want to get to know you too. If you don't want it, I won't be wanting it either. Haha. It's just been on my mind because it's interesting, I think.

And out of context, people are so damn pussies these days. Everyone is afraid of doing the things they love or the things they would want to do. A lot of this has to do with talking with people. "Who am I to..." and so on. Really, fuck all that and do the things you love. I do not intend to praise my own achievements but I have achieved a lot by doing things I want to do. I have a kind of a 'do or die' attitude, I can't leave things undone because I would regret it afterwards. If you want to get to know someone, if you would love to write a song with your idol, if you would want to have a special message on the Kamppi light board, if you would want to have the whole Helsinki drowning in roses, if you would want to have your favorite band visit your summer cottage...... There are ways of getting things done. Just got to know the way and never quit until you've achieved what you want.

Lol, this sounds so stupid. But once again, you've got to know me a little better by reading this blog post.

How I met your... my producer (+song!!!)

One thing that's been crucial for my 'career' was the acoustic two-side single that I recorded in the fall of 2011. It's been for so many coincidences that I tend to think it's all destiny. I printed 50 pieces of this single and later on literally run to the concert of this certain electro pop band. Saw the last 15 minutes of their performance and after the gig I chatted with the lead singer. We had same kind of history, we had both started writing songs in an early age and then on moved to producing in teenage years, as a 'one man band'. The singer, who is also a producer, songwriter and what else, promised to help me in future and if I recall correctly, he offered to give me some mixing tips.

Things happened and soon I was 'a technician' at their club gig. This basically meant eating with them, chilling with them at the backstage, watching their soundcheck, eating their snacks and drinking their drinks... Haha. It was a dream come true. Quite far from a technician's job but I did-not-complain!!

At the venue I handed out the acoustic single to this new producer friend of mine and on the next morning as we chatted out, he asked if I wanted to learn producing music. Hell yes! Soon an EP was in the works. And has been for the last, what, 14 months! Haha. I have advanced so fucking much. Pardon my French but it's just mental how much I have advanced because of this great meet-up.

Haha, and when we met with the producer at the studio, I played him 10 of my rough rock 'n roll songs. He was confused. He was amazed. What had he done?! They did not meet his expectations at all. He had heard two acoustic pop songs. And now this fella was offering him 10 rough rock songs? Ugh! I had started experimenting with the electronic genre after discovering the producer's band and then I played one of them to him and he was blown away. "More of these, please". I didn't like the idea. I wanted to make an lo-fi indie rock record in vein of Olavi Uusivirta's Nuoruus single. But then, I was just so in love with the producer's band that it took my heart and I started producing music on my laptop and suddenly they started sounding mind-blowing not only to myself but also to the producer who had inspired me. Mental.

This unreleased song was the b-side of the single. I recorded it again last summer because I liked the song but did not like the production back in 2011. The lyrics are once again personal and tell of the feelings I had in the fall of 2011. They are pretty self-explanatory. "To let this situation proceed under its own weight or to just go cold turkey would be all the same". The communication between two people might have frozen or stopped, and their relationship is flatlining as in dying. Flat line = dead.

Hope you like the song! There's a slight Passenger vibe to it now that I've discovered the guy, OR THEN NOT. It's kind of a pop "folk". In captions for it's kind of far from the real folk.




Flatlining 170712

To let this situation proceed
under its own weight
or to just go cold turkey
would be all the same

But nevertheless, the recent silence
has taken all my hope and powers
I wish this would never end
but we are flatlining

It can't be as hard to see
as it is to say
No, it can't be as hard 'cause
You must have noticed by now

You've got some former experience
So how would you revive ourselves?
I wish this would never end
but we are flatlining

Nevertheless, the recent silence
has taken all my hope and powers
I wish this would never end
but we are flatlining
We are flatlining

I shouldn't...

I am not that sick anymore! Feeling better outside, inside even better. Hhaha.

I asked my friend to join forces with me as a synth player to play in my synth pop band and he said yes. I'm very happy because I got one box ticked out of my to-do list and things rolling little by little. The EP seems to be finishing by itself, haha, and I wish we'd be gigging in spring already. May, perhaps. It's all about the timing with ALL music concerned stuff so these things got to be planned early as hell. The EP must be released in the right time and you gotta think of all kinds of little things. And then again, none. It's complicated.

The clock was about 6 pm when I decided to start recording some additional acoustic guitars to the EP. I came up with a riff that I recorded and then I started playing some chords over it. The chord progression sounded so nice that I started to sing upon it and boom. A song was born.

"I Shouldn't Think Of You" is what I've made in two hours. I have been told by the producer not to make new songs (and I haven't for the last month or so!) because... well, I don't like doing bad songs. I usually ditch the song in an early phase if it doesn't please my ear. We've had a serious problem with my songwriting during the process of making the EP; I constantly produce better and better songs and that leads us, me and the producer, to a situation in which the songs we have decided to do are not the best ones anymore. So, I had to quit writing for some time.

And now that I started, this is what came out in two hours! I like it. I also use chords I seldom use and that was not even intentional, hehe.

I, I shouldn't think of you
Still I do
 

positivity prevails

Still suffering of flu so all the plans are once again fucked up but as always, I rather aim my focus on the positive sides of things. And I'm eagerly waiting for spring, for the summer. For the finishing of the EP, for the live gigs, for the EP release. I'm eagerly waiting for my life. All the amazing things that will happen in the next years. And I become so extremely happy every time I remember there's a whole life in front of me. 

These are probably the most beautiful lyrics in the whole wide universe. And so is the song. Snow Patrol has the most romantic lyrics in the world lol. Haha. Wish I'd see them someday.

CHASING CARS

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

But if you close your eyes does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?

[BASTILLE : POMPEII. THEIR DEBUT ALBUM'S OUT NOW!!!]

Jee.

I have just journeyed in the trunk of a car with friends after enjoying a chill birthday party in a slight fever... Had a boring first half of the day and a nice other half until the fever rose again. Now I'm sneezing and editing the EP songs. Last night I once again heard some positive feedback concerning my music from people I don't know and that felt really good. They could not believe a boy of my age would be producing the kind of music I produce - and the fact I make it all by myself (though I have a producer teaching, coaching and guiding me, but nowadays I do A LOT of it. It often sounds like the final deal on the second demo version) was just the cherry on the cake.

Next week I try to do things even more than this week. My friends from a longer period of time would want to see me but I've always planned every day full, gotta free a lot of time for them in the future.

fever yay

I got invited to a weekly meetup of songwriters in school, I get a high school course out of it and I gotta write two essays and a couple of songs. Very nice and it's nice to see other songwriters there. Just today we listened to my song and everyone either wrote or drew something that came to their minds while the listening and it was very nice to hear and see what they had got out of it. Motivating, too.

In the afternoon I was supposed to go to see Olavi Uusivirta with my friend but as she did not come I went by myself and was very, very pleased with the gig. Superb!! Olavi is such an a-ma-zing performer, singer and songwriter. We got to hear a partly a cappella version of Reeperbahn and Nuoruus, the last song before the encore, just blew everyone's minds with the energy Olavi put into it.

I should have gone to see a gig of my friend's but this fever that rose just won't let me. Felt dizzy in the escalator in the city center and what else! Sick. I so would have wanted to go but I thought it's better I go home instead... Fucking sucks but so has sucked the whole day for some parts. Just don't freaking get some people. This fever plus vitutus just does not do.